It has been awhile. For this I most profusely apologize. For some reason, I can't seem to drum up any desire to post anything lately.
Started a new job. The most I can say about it is that it's a job. Just a way to earn money. I really can't say that I enjoy it, because that would most definitely be a lie.
I decided that if nothing is done or heard on the Korea front by the end of June, I'm just going to find a place to rent here. Not the most exciting idea, but I have to live, and not put my life on hold any longer. I need to get away from my parents' house. I need to have a place that is just mine. Well, and Loki's, of course.
It has been raining every day for the past three or four days here in Enid. This makes me happy, naturally. Today I opened the huge window in my bedroom, sat at my desk(my desk is right in front of my window. helps to have it there when I'm drawing or painting), and just gazed out upon the world. The rain made the whole scene green-tinted. It was quite picturesque, let me tell you. I mean, it was hard to ignore all the other houses, and my dad's truck, but I did my best. There's nothing like the smell of the air when it rains. The combination of moist earth and water makes the cool air something to be savored.
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The State of My Union
I've been giving some thought lately to the state of things in my life.
When I graduated in December, I thought that I would be in Korea by now. Now, obviously, that has not happened. I guess things just fall through sometimes. I find it severely disappointing, but I suppose I can wait for a few more months until I find something else.
Until then, I can concentrate on making as much money as I possibly can. Sounds good, right? I can start paying off my bills, and put the rest in the bank. Probably the best thing I could do for myself.
As for the state of my relationships with people, well, those are complicated.
Things with my parents are probably getting tense. I feel like I'm invading their space. Conflicts happen. The plan was to live here for just a few months. But what was maybe four months has turned to seven, and that was definitely not in my plans. I hate imposing on them, and I also need my own place and my freedom.
Friendships are good, although I don't see said friends very much. This needs to change. We need to make plans to hang out more often. Even going to get coffee every now and then would be a welcome change.
Now a biggie: guys. Yeah, there is nothing new OR old on that front, I'm afraid. Now, in some ways, this is good. That way I can concentrate on work. It also won't lead to any awkward or hard good-byes in the months to come. But UGH. Come on. Once in awhile, a girl needs at least a hug. Maybe a kiss or two as well. :)
So as a recap, nothing has really gone according to plan in the past few months. However, new opportunities come up every day. Just have to look on the bright side and keep a optimistic attitude.
Too bad I'm a pessimist.
Sigh.
When I graduated in December, I thought that I would be in Korea by now. Now, obviously, that has not happened. I guess things just fall through sometimes. I find it severely disappointing, but I suppose I can wait for a few more months until I find something else.
Until then, I can concentrate on making as much money as I possibly can. Sounds good, right? I can start paying off my bills, and put the rest in the bank. Probably the best thing I could do for myself.
As for the state of my relationships with people, well, those are complicated.
Things with my parents are probably getting tense. I feel like I'm invading their space. Conflicts happen. The plan was to live here for just a few months. But what was maybe four months has turned to seven, and that was definitely not in my plans. I hate imposing on them, and I also need my own place and my freedom.
Friendships are good, although I don't see said friends very much. This needs to change. We need to make plans to hang out more often. Even going to get coffee every now and then would be a welcome change.
Now a biggie: guys. Yeah, there is nothing new OR old on that front, I'm afraid. Now, in some ways, this is good. That way I can concentrate on work. It also won't lead to any awkward or hard good-byes in the months to come. But UGH. Come on. Once in awhile, a girl needs at least a hug. Maybe a kiss or two as well. :)
So as a recap, nothing has really gone according to plan in the past few months. However, new opportunities come up every day. Just have to look on the bright side and keep a optimistic attitude.
Too bad I'm a pessimist.
Sigh.
The ROK Chronicles: Part I
It all started with a discussion between Charlet and I. When I got wind that her and Chad were thinking about going over to South Korea to teach, I had to get in on it.
I have known all my life that I want to travel. There is only one thing firm in my mind, and it's not a job. I just can't picture myself working a job. When people think of their futures, they see themselves in jobs, among other things. When I think of my future, all I see is myself travelling. I know, that not being a trust-fund baby, I need to work to survive. I expect it. And I want to work. I just don't have it in my mind.
So, when I heard what Charlet was doing, I thought, "this would be the perfect thing for me". I know that I'll have to work. I'll even have to work hard, and it still makes me excited. It makes me excited because while I'll be working, I'll be immersed in a culture that is nothing really like mine. I'll be away from Oklahoma, which is a huge goal of mine.
I have known all my life that I want to travel. There is only one thing firm in my mind, and it's not a job. I just can't picture myself working a job. When people think of their futures, they see themselves in jobs, among other things. When I think of my future, all I see is myself travelling. I know, that not being a trust-fund baby, I need to work to survive. I expect it. And I want to work. I just don't have it in my mind.
So, when I heard what Charlet was doing, I thought, "this would be the perfect thing for me". I know that I'll have to work. I'll even have to work hard, and it still makes me excited. It makes me excited because while I'll be working, I'll be immersed in a culture that is nothing really like mine. I'll be away from Oklahoma, which is a huge goal of mine.
