so the cheerleaders are wearing platform tennis shoes...huh

so back in uh...august, maybe september (yeah i know, sorry about that), i went to my first korean baseball game. the doosan bears kicked the butts of the kia tigers, and i loved every minute of it.








korean cheerleaders are...umm..very typical of the culture. or at least, the tv culture. i honestly can't begin to describe them. they had like 10 million costume changes, and most of them involved outfits that made them look like ladies of the night (i'll say that, instead of what i really want to to be polite). but, i will say, that they did seem to really get the crowd hyped...

apology

(this is my "i'm sorry, i'm pathetic" face...)

so i really do apologize for the lack of anything resembling a post lately. moving to a new country, and dealing with lots of (unnamed) shit means sometimes keeping up with a blog is forgotten. from now on, i'll attempt to try harder.

Things I'll Miss In Korea

1. All my books. It's going to be reeeaaally difficult to be without all my books. When you read as much as I do, you need to have a constant stream of them, and I don't really see that happening. I'm only going to take five with me, and I have no clue how to choose. The only book that I absolutely KNOW I'm taking is my Complete Works of Shakespeare. Guess I need to hurry and decide...

2. My car. Being able to drive wherever the heck I want, when I want makes me feel great. It will be a completely new experience to me to have to take the subway or a bus.

3. Taco Bandito. Sigh...yeah. Really going to miss their bean burritos with extra sauce.

4. The stars. I'm a nighttime type of gal. When I can't see the stars that well, it makes me a little sad, so living in a big city is going to be tough.

A Quick Update

As the title says, this will just be quick. I will be leaving for Korea on the 19th of this month. Yeah. Excited, but nervous all at the same time. Understandable, right? I'll be in Seoul- Gangseo to be more specific. Anyone around that area should hit me up.

I'm not allowed to bring Loki. I'm honestly completely heartbroken about that. When I went out to feed her a couple days ago, I have to admit, I broke down and cried for awhile. I hate crying. I hate having people know when I cry. But this is something that makes me sad, so if you want to make fun, I'll beat you up. So there.

Today I....

Woke up at the crack of noon [and it was beautiful :)].

Went on a date with my daddy. Ate some Chinese food, and it was good.

Re-read a book that I hadn't read since middle school; it used to be one of my favorites.

Spent time with my best friend and my other friend, her boyfriend.

Watched the season finale of Glee. It made me sad, cause I'll have to wait for more episodes. :(

Was with my friend when she got some more info about Korea.

Found out I should get a call within the next couple of days about what school I will be at.

MY DAY= :)

The State of My Union

I've been giving some thought lately to the state of things in my life.

When I graduated in December, I thought that I would be in Korea by now. Now, obviously, that has not happened. I guess things just fall through sometimes. I find it severely disappointing, but I suppose I can wait for a few more months until I find something else.

Until then, I can concentrate on making as much money as I possibly can. Sounds good, right? I can start paying off my bills, and put the rest in the bank. Probably the best thing I could do for myself.

As for the state of my relationships with people, well, those are complicated.

Things with my parents are probably getting tense. I feel like I'm invading their space. Conflicts happen. The plan was to live here for just a few months. But what was maybe four months has turned to seven, and that was definitely not in my plans. I hate imposing on them, and I also need my own place and my freedom.

Friendships are good, although I don't see said friends very much. This needs to change. We need to make plans to hang out more often. Even going to get coffee every now and then would be a welcome change.

Now a biggie: guys. Yeah, there is nothing new OR old on that front, I'm afraid. Now, in some ways, this is good. That way I can concentrate on work. It also won't lead to any awkward or hard good-byes in the months to come. But UGH. Come on. Once in awhile, a girl needs at least a hug. Maybe a kiss or two as well. :)

So as a recap, nothing has really gone according to plan in the past few months. However, new opportunities come up every day. Just have to look on the bright side and keep a optimistic attitude.

Too bad I'm a pessimist.

Sigh.

I'm Late on This, but it Will Be Ok....

My New Year's Resolutions:

1. Actually write on this thing at least once a week.

2. Finally make it to South Korea.

3. Eat way healthier.

4. Get in shape.

5. By managing 3 & 4, go down at least two or three sizes.

6. Bring Loki Ursa to Korea with me.

7. Learn to be even more independent.

8. Learn to get my projects done ahead of time- and not put them off until the last minute and read a book instead.

9. Be confident in my job.

10. Pay off my credit cards.

11. Pay off my student loans.

12. Travel.

13. Make wherever I end up living a comfortable home.

14. Start painting again (I miss it).

15. Learn to be happy with myself, and not constantly be searching for happiness in others.

Brains and Rain

So, I realize that the title of my blog might be a little misleading. It makes it sound as if there is just so incredibly much going on in my life. Now, this is true a lot of times. If there isn't a lot going on around me, it usually means there's a lot going on in my head. Heads hold many thoughts, you know. Or, at least mine does.

However, not much is really happening in my life right now. It's really just me graduating college and waiting around to see if this whole ROK thing actually pans out. I wish I knew if it was going to or not. If I'm going to be around for a lot longer, I really need to go out and get a job for a few months. Have to have a way to pay the bills. However, I don't really want to if I'm just going to leave in a month or two.

Ugh! So frustrated right now. I think I just need to hear something definite, you know? Some little scrap of solid information, at least?

My Baby

If I do end up going to Korea, this big girl is coming with me. I couldn't just leave her behind. I know it will be hard to be in a new country with a pet. I know there are things that I won't be able to do, but how do you abandon a face like that? Loki is pretty much the most important thing in my life. You don't leave your child behind.

The ROK Chronicles: Part I

It all started with a discussion between Charlet and I. When I got wind that her and Chad were thinking about going over to South Korea to teach, I had to get in on it.

I have known all my life that I want to travel. There is only one thing firm in my mind, and it's not a job. I just can't picture myself working a job. When people think of their futures, they see themselves in jobs, among other things. When I think of my future, all I see is myself travelling. I know, that not being a trust-fund baby, I need to work to survive. I expect it. And I want to work. I just don't have it in my mind.

So, when I heard what Charlet was doing, I thought, "this would be the perfect thing for me". I know that I'll have to work. I'll even have to work hard, and it still makes me excited. It makes me excited because while I'll be working, I'll be immersed in a culture that is nothing really like mine. I'll be away from Oklahoma, which is a huge goal of mine.