I discovered a new enjoyment of soccer(football). At the World Cup Stadium, watching a game is great fun. Even if the game itself isn't that exciting, the fans more than make up for it. Sitting in the stadium, eating corndogs, chips, ice cream, and drinking a bottle of pop or a beer makes for some of the most fun I've had since I've gotten here. Mostly, it's just the atmosphere, I guess.

my new awesomely awesome camera!

yeah, so that's me (obviously).















the yumminess that we ate at hooters.














hooters! yay! the girls there don't really have boobs though...so it's kinda like the whole place is missing the point.














my bestest friend! she went with me to buy my new camera, then she and i went to hooters.


so the camera i got is an olympus pen e-pl2, and i'm uber excited about it. considering it's my first camera in probably over 7 years, "excited" is probably an understatement. i really hope that with this new, bright, and shiny camera i will blog more. not going to hold my breath, but a girl can hope, yeah?

....

pros and cons of staying another year:

pros...
1. more money saved (bills, a car for when i get back)
2. i wouldn't be in oklahoma
3. i would get to stay with the kids i love
4. i would have a job, which is something i can't guarantee when i get back
5. i like how i can go to stores which would take me over an hour to get to back home and here, they aren't that far away

cons...
1. i'm homesick, even though i hate oklahoma
2. shopping for my size is easier at home
3. i would have to be around the kids i have trouble with
4. i miss my puppy
5. i dislike not being able to get in my car and just start driving
6.i hate not understanding stuff that is being said around me (i know, i could learn korean, but that could take YEARS)
7. i hate the city. i miss how nature, even a backyard, was never far away in oklahoma
8. i'm lonely. like "i can feel it in my bones" kind of lonely


so? any suggestions? i know what i'll probably do, but any input would be appreciated.

so the cheerleaders are wearing platform tennis shoes...huh

so back in uh...august, maybe september (yeah i know, sorry about that), i went to my first korean baseball game. the doosan bears kicked the butts of the kia tigers, and i loved every minute of it.








korean cheerleaders are...umm..very typical of the culture. or at least, the tv culture. i honestly can't begin to describe them. they had like 10 million costume changes, and most of them involved outfits that made them look like ladies of the night (i'll say that, instead of what i really want to to be polite). but, i will say, that they did seem to really get the crowd hyped...

apology

(this is my "i'm sorry, i'm pathetic" face...)

so i really do apologize for the lack of anything resembling a post lately. moving to a new country, and dealing with lots of (unnamed) shit means sometimes keeping up with a blog is forgotten. from now on, i'll attempt to try harder.

ugh

so i'm in seoul. i'm fine and everything. i was going to write this big ol long post with pictures and everything, but the site doesn't want to upload my pictures for some reason. it's infuriating. i'm infuriated. i'll try again later.

Things I'll Miss In Korea

1. All my books. It's going to be reeeaaally difficult to be without all my books. When you read as much as I do, you need to have a constant stream of them, and I don't really see that happening. I'm only going to take five with me, and I have no clue how to choose. The only book that I absolutely KNOW I'm taking is my Complete Works of Shakespeare. Guess I need to hurry and decide...

2. My car. Being able to drive wherever the heck I want, when I want makes me feel great. It will be a completely new experience to me to have to take the subway or a bus.

3. Taco Bandito. Sigh...yeah. Really going to miss their bean burritos with extra sauce.

4. The stars. I'm a nighttime type of gal. When I can't see the stars that well, it makes me a little sad, so living in a big city is going to be tough.

A Quick Update

As the title says, this will just be quick. I will be leaving for Korea on the 19th of this month. Yeah. Excited, but nervous all at the same time. Understandable, right? I'll be in Seoul- Gangseo to be more specific. Anyone around that area should hit me up.

I'm not allowed to bring Loki. I'm honestly completely heartbroken about that. When I went out to feed her a couple days ago, I have to admit, I broke down and cried for awhile. I hate crying. I hate having people know when I cry. But this is something that makes me sad, so if you want to make fun, I'll beat you up. So there.

My Life According to Type O Negative

RULES: Using only song names from ONE ARTIST, cleverly answer these questions. Pass it on to a bunch of people including me. You can’t use the band I used. Try not to repeat a song title. It’s a lot harder than you think! Re-post as “My Life According to (BAND NAME/ARTIST)”


-1. Are you a male or female?
"Cinnamon Girl"

-2. Describe yourself:
"....A Dish Best Served Coldly"

-3. How do you feel:
"Wolf Moon"

-4. Describe where you currently live:
"Prelude to Agony"

-5. If you could go anywhere, where would you go:
"The Glorious Liberation Of The People's Technocratic Republic Of Vinnland By The Combined Forces Of The United Territories Of Europa"

-6. Your favorite form of transportation:
"Summer Breeze"

-7. Your best friend:
"Black No. 1 (Little Miss Scare-All)"....lol

-8. Your favorite color is:
"Green Man"

-9. What’s the weather like:
"Set Me On Fire"

-11. If your life was a TV show, what would it be called:
"Dark Side of the Womb"

-12. What is life to you:
"Life is Killing Me"

-13. Your current relationship:
"Skip It"

-14. Looking for:
"Blood & Fire"

-15. Wouldn’t mind:
"Bloody Kisses"

-16. Your fear:
"Some Stupid Tomorrow"

-17. What is the best advice you have to give:
"Its Never Enough"

-18. If you could change your name, you would change it to:
"Pyretta Blaze"

-19. Thought for the Day:
"In Praise Of Bacchus"

-20. How I would like to die:
"Love You To Death"

-21. My motto:
"Be My Druidess"

My Day...

Read a book by 3:00 in the afternoon.

Decided to go to the Felt Bird to purchase some awesome merchandise, stayed there for about 40 minutes looking at stuff, went up to the register to purchase a wild strawberry planter-thingy, and discovered my debit card wasn't in my pocket. Ugh.

Came home, sat on my bed to watch TV, then passed out after about 3 minutes of it. Huh.

Decided I should just get on the computer, so turned it on, and re-watched a couple episodes of Glee.

Caught up on my blog-reading.

All in all, my day= Meh, Frustration, and a mild case of Happiness

Today I....

Woke up at the crack of noon [and it was beautiful :)].

Went on a date with my daddy. Ate some Chinese food, and it was good.

Re-read a book that I hadn't read since middle school; it used to be one of my favorites.

Spent time with my best friend and my other friend, her boyfriend.

Watched the season finale of Glee. It made me sad, cause I'll have to wait for more episodes. :(

Was with my friend when she got some more info about Korea.

Found out I should get a call within the next couple of days about what school I will be at.

MY DAY= :)

My Cheap Slut of a Computer

Well guys, sorry once again about the lack of posts. My computer was a little whore and managed to pick up a lovely computer std. Then one day just decided it had had enough and completely died on me. Now I'm ridiculously behind on all my blog-reading. It sucks big testes. Basically the only internet access I have is on my cell. Le sigh... Anyways, I don't see that changing for awhile, so I have to apologize ahead of time for what will probably be a few months of nada on the blog front...sorry. :(

Sigh....

It has been awhile. For this I most profusely apologize. For some reason, I can't seem to drum up any desire to post anything lately.

Started a new job. The most I can say about it is that it's a job. Just a way to earn money. I really can't say that I enjoy it, because that would most definitely be a lie.

I decided that if nothing is done or heard on the Korea front by the end of June, I'm just going to find a place to rent here. Not the most exciting idea, but I have to live, and not put my life on hold any longer. I need to get away from my parents' house. I need to have a place that is just mine. Well, and Loki's, of course.

It has been raining every day for the past three or four days here in Enid. This makes me happy, naturally. Today I opened the huge window in my bedroom, sat at my desk(my desk is right in front of my window. helps to have it there when I'm drawing or painting), and just gazed out upon the world. The rain made the whole scene green-tinted. It was quite picturesque, let me tell you. I mean, it was hard to ignore all the other houses, and my dad's truck, but I did my best. There's nothing like the smell of the air when it rains. The combination of moist earth and water makes the cool air something to be savored.

The State of My Union

I've been giving some thought lately to the state of things in my life.

When I graduated in December, I thought that I would be in Korea by now. Now, obviously, that has not happened. I guess things just fall through sometimes. I find it severely disappointing, but I suppose I can wait for a few more months until I find something else.

Until then, I can concentrate on making as much money as I possibly can. Sounds good, right? I can start paying off my bills, and put the rest in the bank. Probably the best thing I could do for myself.

As for the state of my relationships with people, well, those are complicated.

Things with my parents are probably getting tense. I feel like I'm invading their space. Conflicts happen. The plan was to live here for just a few months. But what was maybe four months has turned to seven, and that was definitely not in my plans. I hate imposing on them, and I also need my own place and my freedom.

Friendships are good, although I don't see said friends very much. This needs to change. We need to make plans to hang out more often. Even going to get coffee every now and then would be a welcome change.

Now a biggie: guys. Yeah, there is nothing new OR old on that front, I'm afraid. Now, in some ways, this is good. That way I can concentrate on work. It also won't lead to any awkward or hard good-byes in the months to come. But UGH. Come on. Once in awhile, a girl needs at least a hug. Maybe a kiss or two as well. :)

So as a recap, nothing has really gone according to plan in the past few months. However, new opportunities come up every day. Just have to look on the bright side and keep a optimistic attitude.

Too bad I'm a pessimist.

Sigh.

Probably my favorite song right now. Something about this man's music just speaks to my soul. It's kind of bad though, because everytime I hear this song, I start crying a little.

Hope everyone had a great Valentine's Day.

To all of the couples, hope you got all the fun out of it you could with your significant other. ;)

To all the single people (myself included), hope you still had fun. No reason to be sad. My friend had something really great to say about it:

"...reminded at this time of year that while being in a relationship is fun and sweaty, being single requires no compromise or condoms. Valentine's Day for single people is the real Independence Day, baby!"

Ray LaMontagne = Love

Period.

That is all.

In Need of a Change

I finally got my diploma in today from the school. Had to pay 25 extra dollars to get it rush-shipped, but hopefully, it will be worth it.

I also moved all the furniture around in my room. I'm fully anticipating bruises to pop up all over my body. Damn you, wood furniture! Ugh.

Rupert Giles and His Amazing Ability to Banish My Boredom

So...absolutely nothing happening. I do believe I have the most boring life right now. Staying at home reading all day, everyday is lovely for awhile, but after several weeks, one can get a bit worn out of it. Put me to work, already! Gaw. I guess I'll just go watch some movies. Ooooh, idea! Going to watch Repo! The Genetic Opera, which is a great movie for all the Buffy fans, as it has Anthony Stewart Head (Giles) in it. Giles as a mass-murderer? Yummmm...

I'm Late on This, but it Will Be Ok....

My New Year's Resolutions:

1. Actually write on this thing at least once a week.

2. Finally make it to South Korea.

3. Eat way healthier.

4. Get in shape.

5. By managing 3 & 4, go down at least two or three sizes.

6. Bring Loki Ursa to Korea with me.

7. Learn to be even more independent.

8. Learn to get my projects done ahead of time- and not put them off until the last minute and read a book instead.

9. Be confident in my job.

10. Pay off my credit cards.

11. Pay off my student loans.

12. Travel.

13. Make wherever I end up living a comfortable home.

14. Start painting again (I miss it).

15. Learn to be happy with myself, and not constantly be searching for happiness in others.

Mmmm, So Good

Such a sad song...love me some Taeyang though. I'm so glad I could find this with some English subtitles. :)

Brains and Rain

So, I realize that the title of my blog might be a little misleading. It makes it sound as if there is just so incredibly much going on in my life. Now, this is true a lot of times. If there isn't a lot going on around me, it usually means there's a lot going on in my head. Heads hold many thoughts, you know. Or, at least mine does.

However, not much is really happening in my life right now. It's really just me graduating college and waiting around to see if this whole ROK thing actually pans out. I wish I knew if it was going to or not. If I'm going to be around for a lot longer, I really need to go out and get a job for a few months. Have to have a way to pay the bills. However, I don't really want to if I'm just going to leave in a month or two.

Ugh! So frustrated right now. I think I just need to hear something definite, you know? Some little scrap of solid information, at least?

Ha Weener Lol

My Baby

If I do end up going to Korea, this big girl is coming with me. I couldn't just leave her behind. I know it will be hard to be in a new country with a pet. I know there are things that I won't be able to do, but how do you abandon a face like that? Loki is pretty much the most important thing in my life. You don't leave your child behind.

All I Want for Christmas is a Nap

So, the holidays.....sigh. Am I the only one who would rather just spend the whole season curled up on the couch in front of a fire? The whole dealing with family thing is tiresome.
I know, I'm blessed to still have my family. Some people don't. However, family events are just way too demanding for me. I tend to drift toward a back room, or just anywhere I can be away.
Maybe if I spent most of each day napping, I could handle the holidays and their family-centric theme. I think that's the key to all of my life's problems. When someone annoys me or I can't handle something, it will be nap time. Sounds perfect.

The ROK Chronicles: Part I

It all started with a discussion between Charlet and I. When I got wind that her and Chad were thinking about going over to South Korea to teach, I had to get in on it.

I have known all my life that I want to travel. There is only one thing firm in my mind, and it's not a job. I just can't picture myself working a job. When people think of their futures, they see themselves in jobs, among other things. When I think of my future, all I see is myself travelling. I know, that not being a trust-fund baby, I need to work to survive. I expect it. And I want to work. I just don't have it in my mind.

So, when I heard what Charlet was doing, I thought, "this would be the perfect thing for me". I know that I'll have to work. I'll even have to work hard, and it still makes me excited. It makes me excited because while I'll be working, I'll be immersed in a culture that is nothing really like mine. I'll be away from Oklahoma, which is a huge goal of mine.

Thoughts on how to begin

Deciding where to write my thoughts down was a huge question. To not write them down wasn't even an option. I desperately need the release that putting words down provides. Paper and pen in the traditional journal was attractive. Private. That really appeals to my nature. There are many things about myself that no one knows. I still might do that for my major problems. Keep secrets secret, that kind of thing.

In the end, though, I decided to try my hand at writing my thoughts down in a blog. If people want to keep up with me, then this way they can. Might be helpful, really.